Once in a not-so-great while, I find myself at a radically transiatory stage of my life. That's probably just the nature of my age (21), not to mention that I do live kind of haphazardly (but at the same time, very conscious of what I want).

The Infoshop closed back on our otherwise wonderful holiday, International Workers Day. But more than anything, I was relieved. A lot. Yes, some glacial progress was being made, but honestly, I was running out of stamina and morale. Yes, I was angry at the stunning lack of support we recieved from several parties, to the point where some even boycotted us for the most part. I think it speaks volumes to the poverty of our sense of solidarity, and also the general immaturity of many. And yes, I'm pretty sore about everything I put into that project. I put down money I won't get back, I put in time I won't get back, and I just plain didn't have the energy for school.

But I'm uplifted. We've been graced by the good will of our comrades at my favorite little cafe, a block down from where I live, so our library and propaganda has a home in their back room. I no longer have to run to the shop right after work to sit there all by myself. And on top of that, I actually have some time! Actually, since work is so damn slow, a bit too much time, and I'll probably have to pick up another job soon. But hey, there are worse things. I'm very excited about the resurgance of Students for a Democratic Society, which I've been working on a bit, and I am also aiming to have a regular meeting of Wobblies by the end of the summer so we can start tabling at my community college and other places in the fall.

I've also been faced with the decision of if I should make some rather serious changes in my life. Qutting my job, and parting ways with my partner. I'm not totally satisfied with either, but I've come to the conclusion that they're both the best things that ever have (and probably ever will) happen to me in their respective areas, and I'm willing to put in the time and the energy to make things better. I'm going to give organizing on the job one last try, and I'm going to start committing myself to strengthening our relationship. She's very much worth it. She's my best friend and I love her very strongly. I feel I would be very foolish to throw all of this away. I've wanted to have my life as it is for a very long time now. Work, school, my activism and a home with my partner, all within a stone's throw of each other, all of which fulfilling. Some things are more important than doing what feels good.